Love Story::

Prince falls in love with beautiful princess, then proceeds to fight the evil villain, and in doing so, saves the day and wins the princess's heart.

Typical. 

Isn't that every little girl's dream?
Don't we all want to be rescued and romanced?
We spend so much time searching for that prince; that epitome of perfection. When we believe we have found him, we place all our expectations in him, and at some point (or many points) we become disappointed. 

Maybe that's because we've cast the wrong person as prince. The writer wrote this script with a specific person in mind as the prince. It isn't our job to recast.

Let God take His rightful place in your life. He's already rescued you from sin; now let Him romance you and prove how great His love for you is. 

Ready

I'm so ready to move on.

I'm sick of the life I've lived; of the thoughts and feelings I held.
I'm tired of old habits and the disinterest in what I do.
I want to move forward; away from all of this!

I'm ready now; SO ready!
I'm tired of going backward or standing still.
Show me, Lord, how to move forward.

"Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the body is weak." -Mark 14:38

Major.

Strained.
Frustrated.
Uncomfortable.

I don't belong here.
It's time to move forward,
even though I don't know the directions.
Thankfully, I know who I'm following.

Trust and Obey

You never said it wouldn't hurt.
You told me to follow.
You told me to trust.
But you never promised there would be no pain.

But You promise to stay; to endure.
You never let go before, and You won't let go now.
You said that I have to let go.
You said I can endure, with Your help.

You promised me a future, and a hope.
New HOPE. <3

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you," declares the Lord, "and will bring you back from captivity." -Jeremiah 29:11-14a

Renewed and New.

Okay. *deep breath*
:)
Hello everyone. I would like to welcome you to my blog.
Yes, you may have read my blog before, but I want to welcome you to my new and improved blog!
By that, I mean that I am new and improved ;)
Or at least, I will be :)

It will be a DAILY struggle, but I know that I have made the right choice.
I choose You, Jesus :) You are the one for me.

"When did love become unmoving?
When did love become unconsuming?
Forgetting what the world has told me...
Father of love; You can have me."
(Sidewalk Prophets, "You Can Have Me")

I must forget what the world has told me. It will not be an easy process, but I know it is one that I need and want to take.

If you're reading this: chances are that I asked you to.
I know that I'm at a weak point in my life right now.
I need your support. I need to be reminded that God is everything.
I need to remember what I believe and know to be true.

Several of you have stepped forward and offered your support.
I wasn't ready for it yet. I am now.
Please, my sisters... I need your encouragement.
Thank you, and I love you :)

SO... If you have read my blog since - well, since I started it! - then you'll know that my posts are not always very joyful or upbeat. I hope that you will see an improvement in that soon.
While I realize that I will not always feel happy, I know that I can still be joyful.
I hope that you will see more joy in my posts now that this circumstance has been resolved.

This is new for me; completely new. I'm not used to others holding me accountable. But I know I need it, and the Lord commands it, so I am asking you.

If you think something's up, talk to me.
It may not seem like it, but I want your accountability.
I want to know if someone will notice if I'm not doing what I'm supposed to be doing.
Please, HOLD ME TO THIS. Walk with me and be my sisters.
<3

Remind me, Lord:
"If You're all You claim to be, then I'm not losing anything."

"Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is - His good, pleasing and perfect will." - Romans 12:12

"Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective." - James 5:16

"Finally, all of you, live in harmony with one another; be sympathetic, love as brothers, be compassionate and humble." - 1 Peter 3:8

Tentatively

I'm scared.
It scares me that I even have to think about this; that I don't have an instinctive reaction to it.
I know what I should do. But I don't want to do it.

The choices are staring me straight in the face.
One way; I will seemingly be satisfied. I will be happy; I will have what I've always wanted.
The other way; I can start anew. I can move forward. I will have what I've always needed.

So... what is it?  I have to ask myself this question carefully.
I know what I could gain... and I know what I would lose.

WHY should I even be contemplating this?! Does rebellion have such a hold on me that I would dare make this leap?
It's right; what they say: It takes more faith to believe that you will be all right without Him than it does to believe that you will thrive with Him.

It's crazy, but it takes more guts to believe that You have better plans in store for me than it takes to try to make my plans work out. 

No, I haven't listened. But You spoke to me anyway.
"I will make You new. I have BETTER plans for you. You don't have to remain the same person.
You can move forward, and live."

Better? But.... what if I'm satisfied with where I am now? What if I don't want to move forward?
What if I want what I want?!


"Convince me!" I demanded as tears began to roll down my cheeks.
"What more do I have to do?" His tender whisper shouted to me.

I don't know... I don't know....
Just... show me.

Show me that You care more than he does now, or ever could.
Show me that I don't need everything I think I do.
Show me that You love me. Let me feel that.

Show me that I don't have to settle.
Show me that You are making a new path for me.
Show me that You make all things new.

I'm afraid to talk about this, but at the same time - I want to be convinced.
I want my brothers and sisters to show me that You, God, are THE correct choice.
I know You are... but somehow my heart has forgotten that.

In the end, though, my decision is the one that counts.
They can talk to me all they want, but it is my life that will show who I live for.

I know what I should do, but I don't want to do it.
Tentatively, I'm asking You, God; although I know I don't deserve an answer, although I know You've already given me MORE than enough information to make the correct answer:
Convince me, please.

Tentatively, I'm trying to let go of my plans and let my heart go to the right person.
Tentatively, (and slowly) I am beginning to believe that You have better plans.
Tentatively, I am asking You to speak to me again... although I know that You can convince me to go the way my heart is resisting.

Tentatively, I let go, and ask that You give me something new to grasp tightly.

If I'm being honest...

Then I would have to say that things have been messed up for a long time.
If I'm being honest, then I'd have to say I haven't been the same person.
If I'm being honest, things have felt hopeless for quite some time.
If I'm being honest, I know this isn't from God.

As long as I'm being honest, I might as well admit that my ideas have changed.
It's okay to do something that feels right, without praying about it.
As long as I'm being honest, I might as well admit that I haven't been praying.
As long as I'm being honest, I might as well say that You don't seem like my best friend anymore. I don't feel close to You.
As long as I'm being honest, it's my fault.

Nothing seems right anymore.
I'm so lost that I don't know how to return to the correct path.
I don't know if I can return to that path.

As long as I'm being honest..
It's easy to tell people "God forgives you for everything you've done!"
But it's another thing to live it in your life, after you see everything you've done wrong.

It's hard to get back on track when you lost sight of the track.
I found it every once in a while, but lost it after a few days or weeks.
If I'm being honest, I know that a few songs aren't going to fix me.

If I'm honest, I don't know if I can ever get fixed.